NOTE: This is long. It may not make sense. And I'm ok with that, because really, I don't make sense. Now on to the post....
When Rhett and I first got married, I was so excited to start our life together. I felt like we had it together. Marriage, college degrees, our own home, 2 jobs, a dog, great friends, awesome families, and a sense of comfort. Then...
I got punched in the face with my friend Humility.
Rhett lost his job and spent the next 4 months trying to get one, and he was finally successful BUT it was in...
So not only would Rhett have a new job, but we would be completely uprooting everything we knew to move to a bigger city further away from our families.
So remember that list at the beginning of the list? See what was lost...
Ok now back to the story.
So now Rhett found a job in the far away desert of Tucson, we found an apartment to stay in until the new house will be ready, and the company that Rhett works for gave us a nice moving package that helped us get through this whole move thing. So let's tally everything up again...
2 jobs again
2 homes + apartment
I get another punch in the face from Humility
I can't find a job in Tucson; no one is hiring pediatric nurses. Our house isn't selling. Our home was broken into. Life is just kinda crappy.
I won't bore you with that list again, but just mark out job, add a marked out security, and add a large side of STRESS.
(At this time I've kind of lost the original point to this, so I apologize, but I'm about to make a huge shift in subject, well kind of).
Why do I tell you all this? Because I know that this is a really stupid story, but I feel like I had too much Pride and Self-Assurance. I (now) feel that everything that has happened, good and bad, stems from this. I feel that if Rhett and I were spending more time in the Lord, we may have been bettered prepared for everything that happened. I feel like it is God's plan for us to be in Tucson. That we have served our purpose in Albuquerque, and He has incredible opportunities awaiting us in Arizona. I feel like we (by we I mean more myself than Rhett, but since we are married I'm trying to include him) tried to control the situation and make life how we wanted it, not how God planned it. So then things changed, and taught us things about each other, as well as ourselves.
Did anyone else notice how I didn't include God in any of the lists? I realized it too after I finished writing the last one. God should be at the beginning of all our lists. Even before your spouse and family. And He hasn't been for us, for me. I don't view of any of the things that have happened to us as punishment from God. I believe that God = Love, I believe in free will, but I also believe that we will ultimately be held accountable for all our decisions, good and bad. I see all these events as Him reminding us that He is the Ultimate Planner, Boss, Decision Maker, and Assurance. A much as I try to have control, it's futile.
Ok so that's all I've got. I have no idea if this makes sense, and it doesn't really matter. While writing this, I feel like a lot of my issues seem a little more bearable. I no longer feel like I want a pity party thrown in my honor.
Thank you God for my wake up call (or as I lovingly like to refer to it, my punch in the face).