I guess I should back up a little bit here. I got a job offer during the Christmas break. I'm incredibly excited and ready for my future with this new job. I thought I was 100% ready to leave my school nursing job.
Well resigning from a job was a lot harder than I expected. I work with 2 amazing health assistants. I said goodbye to one today, the other one tomorrow. I had to tell my amazingly supportive boss that I was leaving today. I have to tell my favorite school I'm leaving tomorrow. You see I hate to leave these people, people who have grown to become good friends and respected colleagues of mine. BUT I want to love my job again.
I don't love my job. I like many of my coworkers, love a handful of them, but that's not enough if you are unhappy with the day to day grind of what you do.
For my whole life, much of what I have done is to make others happy. Whether or not I sacrifice my own happiness or desires, I am a people pleaser...through and through. I love being able to make others happy, but I can't with it affecting my livelihood. I would stay at my current job to make others happy, but I can't remember being so unhappy in a job. It's affecting me, my poor husband, and our dog (ok the dog part was added for effect).
So I am breaking free, and following my heart. I don't know what the new job will bring. I pray for new challenges, ample opportunities for growth and personal development, meaningful personal relationships, and patience during the whole transition. I don't know if this will be my forever job, but I believe that God has brought this opportunity into my life and I have a wonderful peace about it.