Since I decided to disappear again, this may be more an eclectic post than on one specific topic, so please bear with me.
1. I failed to let anyone who may still read this that the sweet baby I am carrying is a GIRL! Yay for pink, and bows, and all things girly! I have a fabulous profile picture, but I am at work at the moment, and don't have access to the file. I fully intent on sharing it with you all, hopefully before the baby is born!
2. Work and life has been incredibly busy. Or I should say that I have no idea where all the time goes. I do a lot of laying in bed when I am not working, and I don't necessarily feel the whole "you're growing a baby" can be a valid excuse. I mean when will I start wanting to nest and get things ready for the baby?
3. We just go back from the most wonderful vacation! We drove from Tucson to Midland, TX to Houston, to Austin, back to Midland, and then sadly wound up back in Tucson. I think it was so wonderful, because it was all focused on seeing family and friends, spending time with people we love, and seeing some of the best parts of Texas. I mean, honestly, Texas is the best state, and the green parts are fabulous (i.e. Austin, and Houston (only in the winter/spring for Houston though). I forget that grass is supposed to be green sometimes... I spent my 27th birthday with people that love us, and it couldn't have been better!
4. So coming back from such a great vacation, put me in a huge funk. My work schedule was all wonky (working like 2 nights on, 1 off, 1 on, 1 off, 2 on) which left me feeling like A)I never got to see my husband, B)I couldn't get anything done, and C)withdrawn, sun-deprived, and sad. Even though we have been here going on 2 years, I have yet to feel that true connection. Yes, we have found a church that has helped fill a void that we were missing for a while, but we don't have really any go-to people. My transition to a new unit, took me away from people that knew me a little bit, to a whole new unit where it's just hard to get established all over again, even though I work with some great people.
I miss having someone I can call up, schedule a lunch date, and just talk to. We know some great people, but it's hard, because I feel like they already have their people, and they don't really need any more. The awkwardness is hard to get past, and I know the more I put myself out there, the more friendships I will make, but it's SO hard when I feel like that's all I do, and continually yield no results.
If you made it to the end, you deserve a hug! I hope you all are doing wonderfully, I have done my best to read everyone's blogs, but haven't been the best at commenting! Again, I will work on this....